This year i'm seeing 23rd Ramazan of my life.I dont how many more ramzans i would see.
In past 23 ramzans i have not done any thing great that would be sufficient for my magfirat,though its totally depends upon ALLAH azzawajal but his beloved prophet said : "Pity on those who got month of ramzan and didnt got magfirat from ALLAH"
When I was very small around 5-6 years,i would ask ammi to wake me up for Sehri(pre-dawn food) so that i would also keep fast,in sehri she would do all preperations very silently so that we wont wake up.But few days she'll wake us for sehri,we used to be very happy and after sehri we would sleep and once we are up we again wanted breakfast!when i reached 10 yrs of age, parents stricktly ordered to fast and pray and since then i'm fasting,its 13 years of fast now,around 1 year 1 month of fasting!
When we were in school after coming on cycle we would be very hungry and thirsty and would eagerly wait for Iftar.After Iftar we rest for a while then run to mosque for taraveeh prayers for more than an hour. After Taraveeh we would complete our school work and bind up.Enjoyed ramzan most during this period.
Then i moved to NIT hamirpur for engineering,i got 4 Ramzans but no sehri for all these 4 years.Iftar used to be good with samosa's from tilak and dinner at Ekta Cafe!
Then came year 2006,i graduated and entered corporate world.Its 2nd year in Job now.I dont feel any thing now.Days are passing same as regular days,no change.same office to home infinite loop.I dont feel ramzan anymore.
This year i thought i'll do some thing but again 7 days have passed but nothing!May ALLAH make me fully utilize the Mubarak Month of ramzan.
Aameen!
